Don't get discouraged 0L's - law school really IS like high school!!!

Seriously, I heard my school was cliquey but figured, please!  I am way too old for that to bother me!  Uh, no!  Long story short - I chose wrong the first week of school and can you believe it is TOO LATE for me to hook up with any group or to have any substantial friendships now???  WTF?

I mean don't get me wrong - people are extremely nice to me and there are A LOT of nice people.  Problem is, they are all connected and like in high school, don't seem too keen on adding to their group.  It could just be me they don't want, but I am more thinking they are just comfy in their groups and that's that!

I was with this group of girls - not at all sure how I connected with them, but we had a lot of fun!  I was much older than them, but it was fine.  Then, things happened and it just didn't work out.  Now, I feel a bit alone in a section of 120 people.  Like I said, don't feel sorry for me - I'm fine and having a great time, but I do wish I could have those close friendships I see people developing.  I miss getting the invites to the parties.

It's also like high school because you can hear people talking shit about other people alot!  That drives me CRAZY!  I hated that in high school - it does nothing but make people feel self-conscious! 

Also, there are the pretty girls and hot guys everyone wants/hates/envies!  As I've said before, I'm thankful I don't have to get caught up in that whole game/competition but it is fascinating to watch!  There was a discussion one night about how many hot girls there are in my section (this was a group of girls talking) and they were pissed.  Then 2 girls who I adore said "Yea, I thought I'D be the hottest girl in the class!"  And I think they were serious!!  WOW, the confidence!!!  They are lovely, adorable girls, but as much as I love them, they are right - there are hotter girls (which is QUITE annoying!!!  :) 

The guy situation is interesting!  Most of the girls in the section think there are slim pickings.  Either the guy is hot but not too bright or hot and way too reserved.  Most girls think the guys are just so-so! 

I wish I could shake them!!!  When I was 20-something, I too chased the hottie, bad-boy and where did it get me???  PLEASE!  What I finally (thanfully) became attracted to was the decent looking guy who was the smartest in the room!  NOT the guy who KNEW he was the smartest (cause he ususally was just an ass who was way too cocky for my tastes!) but the guy who really was the smartest!!  Around 25 yrs old I began noticing this gooey feeling I'd get for older men who were the men people called when they needed to get something done.  I even married one of those guys.  Cute, sure, but what made them more attractive was their intelligence!  Now, when taken in those terms, there are a TON of guys in our section that are total hotties!!  I could name 20 off the top of my head! 

Problem for me is two-fold:  still married and too old!!  :)  (Not old enough to be their mom, but their mom's younger sister, perhaps!!!) 

It doesn't hurt to look!  And, since I have been back in school these last 4 years, I have found classes are much more interesting when I develop an innocent crush on someone in the class.  Some classes have end and I've never even spoken to the guy, so this is not about follow-through!  This just helps make a dull situation more interesting.

My new crush - let's call him HH (Happy Hottie)!  Now, HH is more empirically hot than most of the others I've crushed on in years past, but I can see how maybe some might not think so.  I don't want to say too much about him to give it away, but let's just say he's a really nice guy and one of the smartest ones in the room (which is saying a lot in a law class full of geniuses!!!)  It's almost the end of the semester and I've spoken to him MAYBE once - possibly a whole 2 minutes!!  :)  It's perfect for me - worship from afar!  I believe he is secretly dating someone in our section - hope so - they'd be great together if I couldnt have him!!

So, as you can see - law school is totally high school!!  Even I, an "older student" has crushes and crap!!  Can I click my heels like Dorothy and it be 3 years from now - I'm a Jr Associate at some great firm and all of this nonsense is behind me...